Mind wars
I know it’s been a long time that I’ve last written or even updated my blog. Right now, I have the choice to do something… Either, I write something bad which had happened to me or something good that had happened to me…
Well, it’s not a very short time and neither is it a very long time too. In this entire month, I’ve experienced many things and likewise, I’m sure, you’ll have experienced more experiences than me.
The entire of last week was simply awesome. The sessions with Dr. A R Bernard was simply mind blowing and simply wonderful! The perspective which he looks into the bible, the experiences which he has and the type of exposures he have in life really enables me to see things in a brighter and positive way!
The message which he preaches simply enables me to read the bible with another attitude and perspective. Although, I know that the bible says that every single word/ iota and every paragraph is there for a purpose and not another word/ iota or paragraph is to be added or taken away but I only realized it after Dr A R Bernard “opened” the bible and re-presented it to the Church. Only then, I have the revelation of what it truly means.
“Kristos Kai Kosmos” has been lingering in my mind from the day he shared the word till now. There are a lot of questions, I’ve been asking myself but after hearing the Word preached, I felt that there are really something within me wanting to celebrate, wanting to do something that will not only change my personal life but also, the lives of the people around me.
Like I’ve said, I’m very ambitious! I do not just want to be remembered on marble stones but I want to be remembered in the hearts of those who heard my story and know of what God had done in my life when I am gone. I want to leave behind a legacy but… How do I do it? What can I do to start making life more interesting and not like it is, today?
Awhile ago, I was feeling rather down and upset because I wanted to relate to someone… with someone but I really do not know how. I really do not know how… I’m somewhat like stranded… Somewhat a lone ranger…
As I look around me, what can I see? Who are around me?
I was thinking about the cell group which I have… Yes, they are a great bunch of people but there is one thing… I really do not know how to communicate with them at all. I really do not know how. I feel like leaving the cell but I do not wish to let Pastor down… neither do I want to let God down as well!
As I look at other Church mates, seeing them being with their cell group members, friends etc and leaders… All of them looked so free! They are all so happy! Look at me… I find that… I’m not happy at all!
After Church, they would fellowship with one another but for me… I will fellowship with the unholy trinity… Which is “I”, “ME” and “MYSELF”! While the rest of my cell members will be busy serving and having a great time with the rest of the cell members.
Question now is… Why am I there in that ministry cell? Honestly… I do not know… I really do not know…
The Word which Dr A R Bernard spoke still clings strong to my heart.
Jeremiah 29: 11
“For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
This verse really encourages me deeply. This is because, when this was spoken to the Children of Israel, they were actually in captivity in Babylon. However, God did not put them there to die but has been with them through the seventy years of captivity!
Even when God was punishing the Children of Israel, He never thought of anything evil against them. He just wanted them to know that without Him, they are really nothing. They would have been wiped out from the very surface of this world.
Example:
It’s like a child who is learning to swim, the Father will be there to guide the Child. However, when the Child thinks that he is able to swim, he tries to push the Father away. The Father tries to hold tightly on the Child but the Child keeps pushing the Dad away. Thinking that he already mastered the art of swimming, he tries on his own but while trying to be independent, he almost got himself drowned. The Father, seeing what is going on, quickly dashed to His Child and helped the Child to safety.
Just like a Father who cares and will want the best for His Child, God is like that too. He will not abandon the Child even when he is disobedient! God is a Gentleman. He never forces His ways/ will in the lives of His Children too.
Even though I am in a situation which I do not know where I am, what am I going to do, who to turn to when I am lost, I am not afraid! Even though everyone around me will turn away from me and I have not people to relate to… (Be it be my leader/ cell members/ IRC friends/ friendster’s friends etc…) I do not care anymore. All I know is that God is with me… That’s the most important thing. If He is with me, I know that He will provide whatever I want… Yes, even friends, NOT just mere acquaintances!
Therefore, I will not turn to negative thoughts! In as much possible, I’ll look on the brighter side of life in Jesus’ name!
Well, it’s not a very short time and neither is it a very long time too. In this entire month, I’ve experienced many things and likewise, I’m sure, you’ll have experienced more experiences than me.
The entire of last week was simply awesome. The sessions with Dr. A R Bernard was simply mind blowing and simply wonderful! The perspective which he looks into the bible, the experiences which he has and the type of exposures he have in life really enables me to see things in a brighter and positive way!
The message which he preaches simply enables me to read the bible with another attitude and perspective. Although, I know that the bible says that every single word/ iota and every paragraph is there for a purpose and not another word/ iota or paragraph is to be added or taken away but I only realized it after Dr A R Bernard “opened” the bible and re-presented it to the Church. Only then, I have the revelation of what it truly means.
“Kristos Kai Kosmos” has been lingering in my mind from the day he shared the word till now. There are a lot of questions, I’ve been asking myself but after hearing the Word preached, I felt that there are really something within me wanting to celebrate, wanting to do something that will not only change my personal life but also, the lives of the people around me.
Like I’ve said, I’m very ambitious! I do not just want to be remembered on marble stones but I want to be remembered in the hearts of those who heard my story and know of what God had done in my life when I am gone. I want to leave behind a legacy but… How do I do it? What can I do to start making life more interesting and not like it is, today?
Awhile ago, I was feeling rather down and upset because I wanted to relate to someone… with someone but I really do not know how. I really do not know how… I’m somewhat like stranded… Somewhat a lone ranger…
As I look around me, what can I see? Who are around me?
I was thinking about the cell group which I have… Yes, they are a great bunch of people but there is one thing… I really do not know how to communicate with them at all. I really do not know how. I feel like leaving the cell but I do not wish to let Pastor down… neither do I want to let God down as well!
As I look at other Church mates, seeing them being with their cell group members, friends etc and leaders… All of them looked so free! They are all so happy! Look at me… I find that… I’m not happy at all!
After Church, they would fellowship with one another but for me… I will fellowship with the unholy trinity… Which is “I”, “ME” and “MYSELF”! While the rest of my cell members will be busy serving and having a great time with the rest of the cell members.
Question now is… Why am I there in that ministry cell? Honestly… I do not know… I really do not know…
The Word which Dr A R Bernard spoke still clings strong to my heart.
Jeremiah 29: 11
“For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
This verse really encourages me deeply. This is because, when this was spoken to the Children of Israel, they were actually in captivity in Babylon. However, God did not put them there to die but has been with them through the seventy years of captivity!
Even when God was punishing the Children of Israel, He never thought of anything evil against them. He just wanted them to know that without Him, they are really nothing. They would have been wiped out from the very surface of this world.
Example:
It’s like a child who is learning to swim, the Father will be there to guide the Child. However, when the Child thinks that he is able to swim, he tries to push the Father away. The Father tries to hold tightly on the Child but the Child keeps pushing the Dad away. Thinking that he already mastered the art of swimming, he tries on his own but while trying to be independent, he almost got himself drowned. The Father, seeing what is going on, quickly dashed to His Child and helped the Child to safety.
Just like a Father who cares and will want the best for His Child, God is like that too. He will not abandon the Child even when he is disobedient! God is a Gentleman. He never forces His ways/ will in the lives of His Children too.
Even though I am in a situation which I do not know where I am, what am I going to do, who to turn to when I am lost, I am not afraid! Even though everyone around me will turn away from me and I have not people to relate to… (Be it be my leader/ cell members/ IRC friends/ friendster’s friends etc…) I do not care anymore. All I know is that God is with me… That’s the most important thing. If He is with me, I know that He will provide whatever I want… Yes, even friends, NOT just mere acquaintances!
Therefore, I will not turn to negative thoughts! In as much possible, I’ll look on the brighter side of life in Jesus’ name!
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