Some thoughts
I know it has been sometime since I have last updated my blog and I do apologize to you, who have been following on what is happening in my life.
There are many ups and downs happening in my life but when I really take a closer look on the ups and downs, there are really more ups compared to downs in life. Life is afterall, not that bad to me at all.
Things around me have been moving so rapidly that I really did not have much time to write down my thoughts over here. Actually, I did write it down only to find that my entire “story” have not been saved. As a result, I lost all my inputs, which I considered a very good post. Anyway, what can I do? When all is lost, I just got to move on…
I am really thankful to God cause I feel that He is really attending to my needs and knows what I going through in my life. When I was down, He spoke a Word into my life, by using my leader and cell group members to speak to me.
A couple of weeks back, I actually felt rather left out by my cell members. It’s like they are always busy with ministry and even in cell group, they would be talking amongst themselves and I would very often feel very left alone.
I do really feel like the wall paper. I am there but no one takes notice of me. I am not being an attention seeker but correct me if I am wrong, everyone does needs attention. If not, why would they be doing what they are doing?
On the very week when I thought that it would be my very last cell group with them (In fact , I have decided in my heart that I would not want to go back there) I felt a nuddging in my heart, telling me to go back to the cell.
After sometime of reasoning with God, I relented to the prompting of God. I went to cell and attended cell (with a grudging/ heavy heart). I sat throughout the cell, with a bad countenance. (That’s what I felt).
I really thank God that I did listen to His words because if I did not, I would never have knew what message He wants to speak to the cell group. It was actually the very prayer that I had been praying for the past few days. My leader spoke about “Communication”. A topic which I felt that I do not have in my cell. I actually don’t feel belong in the cell at all.
When my leader was preaching about the topic, I was like “YES! Finally! Do preach it!” but on the other hand, I was convicted in my heart that I did not do my part either. I was just sitting in the premises, waiting for the promises.
Anyway, the wonderful thing about the cell that day was that they started to plan for some outings and gatherings the following Monday and Tuesday. This is the first time (outside cell) that I went to my cell member’s home. Although I did not talked much nor was there to do much but I am happier, at least I made an effort to go there and join them in the gathering/ bonding.
There are many ups and downs happening in my life but when I really take a closer look on the ups and downs, there are really more ups compared to downs in life. Life is afterall, not that bad to me at all.
Things around me have been moving so rapidly that I really did not have much time to write down my thoughts over here. Actually, I did write it down only to find that my entire “story” have not been saved. As a result, I lost all my inputs, which I considered a very good post. Anyway, what can I do? When all is lost, I just got to move on…
I am really thankful to God cause I feel that He is really attending to my needs and knows what I going through in my life. When I was down, He spoke a Word into my life, by using my leader and cell group members to speak to me.
A couple of weeks back, I actually felt rather left out by my cell members. It’s like they are always busy with ministry and even in cell group, they would be talking amongst themselves and I would very often feel very left alone.
I do really feel like the wall paper. I am there but no one takes notice of me. I am not being an attention seeker but correct me if I am wrong, everyone does needs attention. If not, why would they be doing what they are doing?
On the very week when I thought that it would be my very last cell group with them (In fact , I have decided in my heart that I would not want to go back there) I felt a nuddging in my heart, telling me to go back to the cell.
After sometime of reasoning with God, I relented to the prompting of God. I went to cell and attended cell (with a grudging/ heavy heart). I sat throughout the cell, with a bad countenance. (That’s what I felt).
I really thank God that I did listen to His words because if I did not, I would never have knew what message He wants to speak to the cell group. It was actually the very prayer that I had been praying for the past few days. My leader spoke about “Communication”. A topic which I felt that I do not have in my cell. I actually don’t feel belong in the cell at all.
When my leader was preaching about the topic, I was like “YES! Finally! Do preach it!” but on the other hand, I was convicted in my heart that I did not do my part either. I was just sitting in the premises, waiting for the promises.
Anyway, the wonderful thing about the cell that day was that they started to plan for some outings and gatherings the following Monday and Tuesday. This is the first time (outside cell) that I went to my cell member’s home. Although I did not talked much nor was there to do much but I am happier, at least I made an effort to go there and join them in the gathering/ bonding.
posted by Calvin Chung @ 11:49 PM
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