The Forgotten Man...

Ever came to a point of prominence in life that wherever you go, people knew you? You seem to be so popular and seem to have friends at any place at anytime?

Ever been to a place where by it seems that you’re going somewhere in life or on the way of being recognized of the things that you have done? Ever done something that really impacted someone’s lives but in the end, people forgot about you?

Well, sad to say, things are often like that. People forget the good that you have done. When they needed someone to be there or someone to comfort them, you give them the best assistance and even give them the best support when the rest are not even supportive. You were there to motivate, encourage and even sacrifice your time, money and even given out all you can, so that the vision of the person whom you are supporting, will be carried on?

I have been there, done that and really got tired of it too. Sometimes, things are just that simple. They forget the good that you have done but they never forget the mistakes which you have made.

Earlier on, I was back in Church. The sermon was without a doubt, great but deep within, I knew… I have given up hope. All those expectations I had, all those dreams I had and even the vision I had before, have all went to the place, where no one will be able to find.

After writing down my thoughts and views to my pastor, I felt better. At the same time, I felt that there is no point for me to continue on doing what I have always wanted to do…

Yes, I do want to serve in ministry but I do not really see a point in doing that as I don’t even feel belonged. How can to feel belong when I once had so many friends but in the end, when I turn around, I only find… I, me and myself? Alright, perhaps it is not only the unholy trinity but also, God, Jesus and Holy Spirit, the Holy Trinity.

Why did I become a Christian?
Simple! I like the way they worship God. I like the idea of having a relationship with God rather than the Master and servant kind of relationship.
I also like the way they freely expressed themselves and I know God is real! That is without a doubt that He is real!

I have been through so much and without Him, I surely am not able to do what I am doing. However, something deep within is never met. The main thing I have been longing. I have been longing for a relationship. The relationship which I am referring is not just for a BGR-relationship but more on friendship.

Yes! I cannot deny the fact that I do have many friends but I would say that they are more of hi and bye friends. They never knew much about me and on my side, I never feel comfortable with people who tries to be close with me. Perhaps, I was once betrayed so badly that I closed myself up, without knowing it myself.

I do wish to open up myself but without the correct people, things will still be the same.

Alas, right now, I feel no purpose in doing the things I am doing. Things like going to Church, joining ministry etc. What is the difference between a social club and a Church is the type of beliefs, oneness within a Church and the relationship with one another.

Without a basic relationship with each other, there will never be ministry. Without relationship, things will fall down easily.

Let’s take example for a wall. What makes up a wall? Is it purely bricks? Purely cement? Purely sand and etc? No! A wall is a wall because there is a oneness, cement etc… which makes it strong and sturdy. Without one another, it will still fall.

When will I experience this? Honestly, I do not know. I do look forward but not with much hope anymore…