The Forgotten Man...

Ever came to a point of prominence in life that wherever you go, people knew you? You seem to be so popular and seem to have friends at any place at anytime?

Ever been to a place where by it seems that you’re going somewhere in life or on the way of being recognized of the things that you have done? Ever done something that really impacted someone’s lives but in the end, people forgot about you?

Well, sad to say, things are often like that. People forget the good that you have done. When they needed someone to be there or someone to comfort them, you give them the best assistance and even give them the best support when the rest are not even supportive. You were there to motivate, encourage and even sacrifice your time, money and even given out all you can, so that the vision of the person whom you are supporting, will be carried on?

I have been there, done that and really got tired of it too. Sometimes, things are just that simple. They forget the good that you have done but they never forget the mistakes which you have made.

Earlier on, I was back in Church. The sermon was without a doubt, great but deep within, I knew… I have given up hope. All those expectations I had, all those dreams I had and even the vision I had before, have all went to the place, where no one will be able to find.

After writing down my thoughts and views to my pastor, I felt better. At the same time, I felt that there is no point for me to continue on doing what I have always wanted to do…

Yes, I do want to serve in ministry but I do not really see a point in doing that as I don’t even feel belonged. How can to feel belong when I once had so many friends but in the end, when I turn around, I only find… I, me and myself? Alright, perhaps it is not only the unholy trinity but also, God, Jesus and Holy Spirit, the Holy Trinity.

Why did I become a Christian?
Simple! I like the way they worship God. I like the idea of having a relationship with God rather than the Master and servant kind of relationship.
I also like the way they freely expressed themselves and I know God is real! That is without a doubt that He is real!

I have been through so much and without Him, I surely am not able to do what I am doing. However, something deep within is never met. The main thing I have been longing. I have been longing for a relationship. The relationship which I am referring is not just for a BGR-relationship but more on friendship.

Yes! I cannot deny the fact that I do have many friends but I would say that they are more of hi and bye friends. They never knew much about me and on my side, I never feel comfortable with people who tries to be close with me. Perhaps, I was once betrayed so badly that I closed myself up, without knowing it myself.

I do wish to open up myself but without the correct people, things will still be the same.

Alas, right now, I feel no purpose in doing the things I am doing. Things like going to Church, joining ministry etc. What is the difference between a social club and a Church is the type of beliefs, oneness within a Church and the relationship with one another.

Without a basic relationship with each other, there will never be ministry. Without relationship, things will fall down easily.

Let’s take example for a wall. What makes up a wall? Is it purely bricks? Purely cement? Purely sand and etc? No! A wall is a wall because there is a oneness, cement etc… which makes it strong and sturdy. Without one another, it will still fall.

When will I experience this? Honestly, I do not know. I do look forward but not with much hope anymore…

mobile virus? Help!!!

I have heard of mobile virus before but I thought it was just a myth or rather, it is never real. However, truth hit me when my mobile phone was infected by the virus.

This virus was sent via Bluetooth when I was sending mp3 song/ ringtone to my colleague after dinner. While in the MRT station, I found that there were lots of people who turned on their Bluetooth. However, I was not sure which “profile” belongs to my colleague until he told me.

Anyway, I received from a “profile” named $Evonne$ and I thought it was a message. As usual, I read the message and pressed the buttons so quickly that I did not realize that it was a virus. Initially, I thought it was just a theme whereby I could use it. After installing it, I realized that I was not able to find the application which I have downloaded. Try as I might, I was not able to find it at all. I spent hours browsing the phone’s menu but was in vain.

Something happened when I turned off my Bluetooth application. My mobile phone actually shuts down, on itself and I thought it was a malfunction, which, happens once in a while. However, I began to realize that the frequency went on more frequently. It was only then, I suspect that my mobile’s been infected by a virus.

I felt so bad that when I reached home, I tried to use a PC to try to get rid of the virus but was not able to. In fact, when I turned on the Bluetooth in the Computer, I realized that the virus actually auto sends itself to the Computer. Of course, I did not accept the virus into the computer else it will be a disaster.

After trying to get rid of the virus in vain, I got rather upset with how things were. What got me more upset was that, even after I shut down the Bluetooth application, the virus would auto send itself to whomever who calls in or sends text message to me. It appears as a MMS to the unknowing party.

The wonderful thing was that not many people called or even sent text messages to me that Saturday. If not, it will be a real disaster!

If you have received any MMS from me or even been hit by the virus, please forgive me. I did not do it deliberately. It is really not intentionally sent to you and I have never want to get anyone into trouble.

Right now, the virus has been cleared but I will never forget this lesson.

Should you receive any messages or applications via Bluetooth through an unknown party, do not be like me… I know I was silly but… what to do? What’s done cannot be undone.

Thoughts...

PASSION EXTRA

Quote:
'... I took the guitar with me to the bathroom, everywhere I went, I played it because I loved it.
- Chet Atkins

Leaders doing just the necessary things never become great leaders.

Passion keeps you going when everyone else is gone.

If we're watching the clock, waiting for the weekends, groaning on Monday, our passion has evaporated.

That's not living. That's existing.

Revive your hot buttons and work from them.

People living outside their passion slowly die.