Chinese New Year~~

It’s been a long and busy weekend! Gosh! It’s been some time since I’ve last enjoyed myself so much!

On Sunday itself, I went to my grandfather’s place then to my aunt’s place. Although I did not gamble/ smoke or even drink but I did enjoy myself with other “sinful” food!
*evil laughter*

After so many years, I’ve finally got to see some of my relatives. Last year, I did not manage to travel much due to my operation on my ankle. So, this year, I manage to see most of my relatives except a handful of my cousins, whom I’ve not met for years!

Nevertheless, I realized something in the visits when I went to my relative’s place. I realized that I would hunt for my favorite “bak gua”! It’s so yummy! I simply cannot resist it! However I ought not to take much of it as I need to watch my weight! Hehehe…

This year, I met someone special, someone whom I’ve never seen before in my life. Haha… Don’t get mistaken. I am referring to my little nephew.  I guess he’s my favorite cousin’s son. He resembles so much like him. He’s funny though.

He kept asking people to play UNO with him and I did. As the rest of my cousins, relatives and my family members were busy gambling etc, I decided to play UNO with him. However, the way he played, was not the way I know of the game.

You see, he is very young, just 7 years old. He would just play whatever cards to his liking and would take my set of cards when he found that the cards he got are not to his likings. Then, he would just play according to his rules…

Anyway, when I “educated” him to the game, he almost lost every game to me. (Not that I refuse to give in to him but I simply have too many cards in my hands that I got rid of it, once and for all) It’s always easier to play with only two persons playing this game. Somehow, it’s much easier to win the entire game too.

Nonetheless, I really enjoyed myself this year. Also, I’ve received a breakthrough collection in my red packet collection! Glory to God! I can finally fulfill my building fund!

Also, I’ve made a decision on the company which I’d want to work at. I’ve decided to stay with ONASUS and reject the offer from AMS services. Although I would very much want to be with AMS but I’ve finally thought over about it and decided to stay with ONASUS… Wasn’t an easy decision for me but I have to do it… Hope that I would find something good about the company which I am currently in. I really hope that I would not make the same mistake when I opted to stay with my cell group two years back…

Can I dream again?

Can I still have that power to dream once again? Will I be able to see my dreams and desires come to pass? What am I good at? What do I really want in life? What are my real priorities in life?

Will you be there for me when I’m down? Will you cry with me when I am crying? Will you comfort me when I am feeling down and out? Will you be there to encourage me when I am discouraged?

Few days ago, I was reminded of a story on goose. When they fly, they always do so, in a V-shape. When the leader of the peck is tired, some other geese will take over the lead and leads on. Interestingly, when one of the geese were to be injured or shot, there will be two other geese companying the injured/ shot geese until the geese recovers or dies.

If geese have such sense, I really wonder why I don’t see it in my life, as in with the so called friends around me.

Very interesting! Just as I asked these questions, my ex-cell member, Xiao Kel sent me a message to remind me that I’m still a friend to him… God is really amazing… However, I need someone to talk to… I do not want to bottle things up within myself. I need to stand up again!

Feel burdened… I really need help… I need to find a way to make things right with God again…

Down or up?

Things are really not going on my way today. I guess it’s due to the fact that I have been turning on my computer for 24/7 for a period of time that it’s not even working for me. Sigh… Right now, I have to go into my sister’s room to use her computer.

Actually, I have a laptop for a backup. I took my laptop back from Justine only to find it covered with ants and after updating my laptop with Office and Windows XP’s updates, I am really sad to say that I am unable to operate my computer right now. What a day!

Anyway, I’ll see what I can do to get my computer up once again. Oh yes… I have been going for a couple of interviews of late. Just went for one which will allow me to travel all around the world. I do hope that I am able to get this job…

I guess I will arrange for an interview with Yvonne at Fuji Xerox tomorrow or the next one two day to see if I am able to get a job asap. I do not want to stay at where I am for so long. I feel that I am such a failure!

Nevertheless, do pray for me. I seriously need God’s guidance and direction for my life. I cannot do what I am doing or had been doing but need to RISE UP and FIGHT this battle! Till then by friends… *tata*

Thoughts on reservice

Ok, I know I‘ve not been writing much of late but I am doing my very best to write what has been happening to me all these while. Earlier on the entries, I’ve written about my reservist experience. Well, good news! It’s over… errrmmm… for now? *smile*

Initially I was looking forward to the much anticipated participation of the In-Camp-Trainings but after what I’ve went through, I’m sad to say that I’ve been kind of let down by the entire experience but am glad to have made some good friends over there!

Ok, things I was disappointed was the organization of the officers. They did everything with very little notice and yes, there is an expectation on the army. It’s supposed to be the most organized organization but… The subordinates rush to make things happen only to find themselves waiting.

One officer even commented this “We rush to wait and wait to rush”. This sentence really speaks much of what I’ve undergone through.

Alright, enough of what has happened. It’s over and done. No point talking about it anymore. Worse of all, I don’t know who is the greedy person who have taken or misplaced the items loan to everyone (A lot of my mates did not even get to touch that item at all) only to find four of the items missing. As a result? Everyone have to pay for the items.

I think I shall focus on the positives and not the negatives.

The positive side of reservist
Well, I get to be re-trained on the things I’ve once learnt a long time ago. It’s been so long that I’ve handled a weapon, done a camouflage and had to get myself dirty etc… Oh yes, I almost forgot to mention about the people there…

I’ve actually gotten to know a number of people over there. Some are lawyers, managers, top notch executives, some businessmen etc… However, I’ve made some observations on these people…

In reservist, there are people who are very good. They cooperate with each other to see that nothing will happen in the entire exercise. They help one another to make sure that they do not get to carry the burden by themselves. They even shared with one another. Of course, there is the good group but there is also the group that is not so good.

There is this group who will group themselves together to do whatever they want. When they feel like it, they just sleep and smoke. When it’s time to work, you’d never be able to see them helping out at all. However, something changed when we are suppose to book out of the ICT. They become a changed person! They actually helped!

Some, work for the benefit of others while there are others who will work to benefit themselves. This group which I am talking about actually did the work ONLY BECAUSE they wanted to get out of the entire thing completely. It’s really frustrating to have to work with these people who refuse to cooperate! I mean we are all doing the same duty, why not help out and make things easier for each other?

*Cools down*

Alright! I’m sorry that I should not have complained about them at all. Who am I to judge them? Maybe they are more seasoned in this area, compared to me? Maybe it’s just them… I don’t know…

Overall, I find that ICT is a time where I can find people whom I can rely on and know who can be friends and who I cannot be friends at all! Next time if you’re in ICT please, do your part and things will be better. Let’s not sabotage one another resulting in hurting only ourselves. The country needs people who can help one another, not individualist! *smile*

My Pen-pals

I was packing up my room the other day when I found a bagful of mails which I’ve once received 13years ago. As I’ve forgotten most of the contents of the mails, I took them out one by one. Just as I read each mail sent I was wondering how and where all my pen-pals have gone.

I don’t know if it’s still the “in” thing to have pen-pals nowadays, considering the fact that it’s the age of IT (Information Techniques), unlike 13years ago, not many people were using the Internet to get to know friends.

I remembered that there were a lot more letters sent to me but somehow, I’ve thrown hundreds of them away. I still remember pen-pals like Christina who stayed at Dakota Crescent whom I once confided my life to her and shared a number of things over the mail. I really wonder who is she getting on and is she married etc… Then, there’s Cai PeiShi Doreen whom I kind of lost touch with back then; oh yes, she stayed at Marsiling Rise back then. Of course, there is another pen-pal with the nick Tweety who stays at Upper Cross Street, Estella who stayed at Marine Terrace and not forgetting my long lost pen-pal, Melissa Hou whom I met once but wrote to each other for years.

I do miss them and really want to find out how they have been doing in life. I really hope to be able to meet up with my pen-pals once more but this time, I do want to meet them in my MSN instead.

Really missed those days where I confided in them and told them about things in my life. It’s such a pity that I lost every single of my pen-pals. I really cannot recall why I did not manage to keep in touch with them (maybe due to time constrains etc) but I really missed those days where I am able to share my thoughts with them as well as to know what they are going through in life right now and be friends with them once more…

Do people still have pen-pals nowadays?

My thoughts...

Hi guys, been sometime since I’ve last updated this new blog. If you’ve noticed, I’ve actually changed the format of my blog and am making it look nicer than the previous blog which I’ve created last year.

After around 10 days into 2006 the first event that impacts my life is my FIRST call up for NS. Since I last left the army back in 2001, it’s been almost five years since I last got into the army camp, doing those stuffs which I’ve done back in 1999. So, from the basic military stuffs till now, it’s been a whopping 8-9years since I last touched or did my military stuffs.

I’ve something to say. I’m NOT against the army or government. I do not want to incur any law suits or any such things. I love my country but I can only do as much as my body can take it.

In fact, I’ve wanted to sign on with the army when I was in secondary school. I’ve even join NCC (National Cadet Corps) to “taste” what army life is about.

Anyway, that’s not the point I want to get to. What I want to say is that the army has sent me an SMS, informing me of this ICT on the first of July last year. When the army called me up at around 11am on the 4th of January, I really have forgotten about it completely. Since that time till now, especially during the past couple of weeks, I’ve been hunting for jobs and the entire ICT matter slipped off my mind.

Thank God that I’m not charged for anything. If not, this time would really be a great blow for me.

Till now, I find that the entire ICT is really relaxed. The officers and all, took their time doing their things. It’s like wasting time. Things were not organized. Unlike other companies, who got their things done in an orderly manner… Anyway, who am I to comment much about the entire matter?

Later on, I’ll be going back to camp and see how things will go on. Tomorrow will be the day when all of us would go outfield, doing things which we are all trained. I really hope that the weather would be fine and that nothing wrong would go wrong.

Friends?

Want to know what I consider as friends? Maybe I did say what I was looking for in a friendship, maybe you've not know my defination of being my friend. Nevertheless, I came across something which really speaks of what I really want in a friend.

However, please take note of one thing. When I mean friends, it means to sat that I am more than willing to share with you MORE than what others know about me. Things like what I like/ dislike and most importantly, I will SHOWER care and love upon a friend as well...

These are the things I would really love to see in my friend...
Most 'fallen' ministers I've met with said they had no-one to talk to, no trusted friends who would understand their problem.God says, 'It's not good that man be alone.'Friends are to laugh with, cry with and do life together with.

Friends are forged in fire.Shared experience is the bases of relationship.
Be there in their ups and their downs and friendship forms.
Our destiny is locked into our friendships.
Jonathan was meant to inherit his father's Saul's throne, but he prepared his soul friend David for that.
How's your friends?

If you've read the entire article, you will be able to know what type of friends do I consider a friend... :) I do not want to fall away from God. I want Godly friends who would encourage me etc... So... :) This is also be one of my goals this year. At least have a friend who will fit the above mentioned.