In the closing days of 2006

In a blinking of an eye, it’s the end of the year 2006. I still feel as if it was yesterday that it was 2005. Time really flies…

After close to 12 months, I have come to a point of time where I feel happier and more contented with my life. In 2005, it was rather bad as I find myself being stranded in no man’s land. It’s as if I was out of place back then…

Alright, shall no longer whine or even complain about anything. (I do my best, alright?) Let’s take a recap of what has God been doing and is doing in my life this year in 2006.

Earlier this year, I found a job in AMS System Services which I stayed on for about 6 months. Initially, the impression I have about the Company was rather good but after a chain of events, I begin to see what God wants me to see. However, more importantly, I have been able to travel to Malaysia and Vietnam. If I am still in the Company, I might have even visited Indonesia, Mauritius, Madagascar, China, Cambodia etc to name a few. Who knows, I might have ended up in United Kingdom!

Anyway, all thing works together for the GOOD for those who LOVES Him! This is the promise and word of God! I trust Him, for He is faithful and just is never a man who should lie but whatever He says shall certainly come to pass. Yes, though it may tarry but it shall certainly come! Yes, heaven and earth or even time will pass away but His word, WILL NEVER FAIL! Though I am unfaithful BUT He IS Faithful! God never fail!

During my last days with AMS Systems Services, I felt that future is bleak and that my supposed “dream” job is coming to an end. In fact, after leaving the Company, I felt very bad and useless but God is GOOD!

Shortly after leaving AMS Systems Services, I went on to my current job which I did not have confident of having at all when I went for the interview. However, in a blinking of an eye, I’m with the Company for more than 4months and going strong!

I love the job which I am doing right now. It is really great being able to know all my colleagues and going through those countless times of jokes, fun and fellowshipping. Though there are times when things just happens and that the work load will get heavy – Which means that I have to work till late hours though without getting OT pay (if God is willing, I will get it no matter who is the one opposing it), nonetheless, I am happy and glad to be with the Company which I am in.

Do I love my job more or God? My answer to you is that, sure thing, without a shadow of a doubt I love God more than anything! I love Him but I feel I don’t love Him enough. I think if I do love Him enough, I would not have rebelled or even do things which hurt His heart. Nonetheless, it does not mean that I am not being spiritual or I don’t love Him. It means to say that I am still human and I am doing my best to honor Him in all things I do by putting Him first in my life!

Please do not doubt my love for Him. I am not condemning myself too. Just reasoning things out as I can see rooms for improvements in my walk with Him. I know I will soar to greater heights in 2007 in terms of the capacity to do more work; love Him more, serve Him more, shine for Him brighter and brighter, seeing the salvation of my family members, financially doing better, career wise, being able to remember my basics and not just remembering my basics but doing it with style and giving my best!

In a couple of days, it will be the end of 2006. However this does not mean the end of what God will do in my life as what I have proclaimed in the title of this blog. Neither does it signifies a time of ending of things or a decline in His works in my life. It actually simply means that He will begin to work more on me.

Just like a Master Potter and the clay, so am I to Him. Just as a piece of unpolished and uncut diamond, I will under go through the things of a diamond. There will indeed be pain due to the cuts, old things will start to open up but at the end of the day, I will break free. Certainly I have to work harder but with my limited strength and resources, I can only do that much. However with Him by my side, I will SOAR like an eagle! YEAH!!!

In two day’s time, it will be Christmas! This is the time where many believed that Christ was born. This is the time (where it is said that it’s the darkest time of the year) when the Savior of the World was Born.

Just like the days when He was given birth to. If you have watched the movie “The Nativity Story” you will begin to understand what it actually means. Jesus was born to the world in the darkest of times in human history. The Roman Empire was ruling harshly etc… He was born in a humble little manger…

Interested to know more? Why did I stop? Haha… Should you wish to know more, I will tell but not now.

Anyway, I thank you for taking the time off to follow up on my life and reading my “rants” or even my life’s experience. I know I may not the best blogger or the most popular blogger.

I may not even be the Christian to whom you think I am or even a strong Christian. You may even think that Christians are those who have a happy, smooth life… a life bed of roses but after reading this, you realized that I am not like that. In fact, though I am rather quiet, rather conservative, do not dance much, do not have much friends or even go out much but I am still as human as you are.

Maybe you have a more exciting life than me in terms of the flings/ the sex/ earning more or much more successful than me. I can tell you that those does not matters at all. I care about my character, attitude and my walk with God. These three things are what I will treasure and will not want to lose at any price at all!

Look alikes?

Earlier on, my colleague passed this link to me and it is realyl interesting. Somehow... I have more "female" looks in me than guys... :(
















Interesting eh? Hehehe... I resemble more like... Stephen Chow... Alan Tam and... Dunno who else... wahahaha

Nativity Story

Christ is the reason for the season! There is no better times than this, to watch this beautiful show which portrays the lives of Mary and Joseph.

Over here, we can see the reason why Mary, a young lady, who chosen to be the earthly, biological mother of Jesus, the Savior of the World. While I was watching the movie, I was touched and I felt a wonderful Presence, which, melts my heart and even my harden heart was moved when I was watching this movie.

In the show, I was constantly touched and moved by the Presence of God. There is a certain anointing in the show and I began to see how God moved even when in the times of the Roman Empire.

During that period of time, the world seems lost and seems in deep need. The people, especially, the Jews were oppressed etc. Anyway, I began to see the hand of God moving in the lives of the people and how God moved in such a wonderful way that He is never late or early but will always be on time!

Whatever He said, it shall certainly come to pass. Whatever He says, it shall come to pass. Though it may terry but it shall certainly by no means be stopped. He is always doing things in such wonderful and awesome way that we will always stand in awe of Him.

Although this might not be the actual scene which happened more than 2000 years ago as portrayed in the movie but I am really touched by the entire show!

Want to have an understanding of why Christ is the reason for the season? Why not watch this movie and you will gain a little understanding. However, together with the Bible –Four Gospel, you will gain a greater insight of the show.

5 Love languages

I am not sure if this is going to help but oh well... I guess I will just try it out to see if there are anyone who are willing to read or even bother to know...

The test seems to be like for couples but I am not using that as a context but as a means to know more about myself or for people to know me?

Here are the results...

Your primary love language is probablyQuality Timewith a secondary love language beingActs of Service.
Complete set of results

Quality Time: 10
Acts of Service: 7
Receiving Gifts: 5
Words of Affirmation: 5
Physical Touch: 3

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Acts of Service:		7
Receiving Gifts:		5
Words of Affirmation:		5
Physical Touch:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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The Forgotten Man...

Ever came to a point of prominence in life that wherever you go, people knew you? You seem to be so popular and seem to have friends at any place at anytime?

Ever been to a place where by it seems that you’re going somewhere in life or on the way of being recognized of the things that you have done? Ever done something that really impacted someone’s lives but in the end, people forgot about you?

Well, sad to say, things are often like that. People forget the good that you have done. When they needed someone to be there or someone to comfort them, you give them the best assistance and even give them the best support when the rest are not even supportive. You were there to motivate, encourage and even sacrifice your time, money and even given out all you can, so that the vision of the person whom you are supporting, will be carried on?

I have been there, done that and really got tired of it too. Sometimes, things are just that simple. They forget the good that you have done but they never forget the mistakes which you have made.

Earlier on, I was back in Church. The sermon was without a doubt, great but deep within, I knew… I have given up hope. All those expectations I had, all those dreams I had and even the vision I had before, have all went to the place, where no one will be able to find.

After writing down my thoughts and views to my pastor, I felt better. At the same time, I felt that there is no point for me to continue on doing what I have always wanted to do…

Yes, I do want to serve in ministry but I do not really see a point in doing that as I don’t even feel belonged. How can to feel belong when I once had so many friends but in the end, when I turn around, I only find… I, me and myself? Alright, perhaps it is not only the unholy trinity but also, God, Jesus and Holy Spirit, the Holy Trinity.

Why did I become a Christian?
Simple! I like the way they worship God. I like the idea of having a relationship with God rather than the Master and servant kind of relationship.
I also like the way they freely expressed themselves and I know God is real! That is without a doubt that He is real!

I have been through so much and without Him, I surely am not able to do what I am doing. However, something deep within is never met. The main thing I have been longing. I have been longing for a relationship. The relationship which I am referring is not just for a BGR-relationship but more on friendship.

Yes! I cannot deny the fact that I do have many friends but I would say that they are more of hi and bye friends. They never knew much about me and on my side, I never feel comfortable with people who tries to be close with me. Perhaps, I was once betrayed so badly that I closed myself up, without knowing it myself.

I do wish to open up myself but without the correct people, things will still be the same.

Alas, right now, I feel no purpose in doing the things I am doing. Things like going to Church, joining ministry etc. What is the difference between a social club and a Church is the type of beliefs, oneness within a Church and the relationship with one another.

Without a basic relationship with each other, there will never be ministry. Without relationship, things will fall down easily.

Let’s take example for a wall. What makes up a wall? Is it purely bricks? Purely cement? Purely sand and etc? No! A wall is a wall because there is a oneness, cement etc… which makes it strong and sturdy. Without one another, it will still fall.

When will I experience this? Honestly, I do not know. I do look forward but not with much hope anymore…

mobile virus? Help!!!

I have heard of mobile virus before but I thought it was just a myth or rather, it is never real. However, truth hit me when my mobile phone was infected by the virus.

This virus was sent via Bluetooth when I was sending mp3 song/ ringtone to my colleague after dinner. While in the MRT station, I found that there were lots of people who turned on their Bluetooth. However, I was not sure which “profile” belongs to my colleague until he told me.

Anyway, I received from a “profile” named $Evonne$ and I thought it was a message. As usual, I read the message and pressed the buttons so quickly that I did not realize that it was a virus. Initially, I thought it was just a theme whereby I could use it. After installing it, I realized that I was not able to find the application which I have downloaded. Try as I might, I was not able to find it at all. I spent hours browsing the phone’s menu but was in vain.

Something happened when I turned off my Bluetooth application. My mobile phone actually shuts down, on itself and I thought it was a malfunction, which, happens once in a while. However, I began to realize that the frequency went on more frequently. It was only then, I suspect that my mobile’s been infected by a virus.

I felt so bad that when I reached home, I tried to use a PC to try to get rid of the virus but was not able to. In fact, when I turned on the Bluetooth in the Computer, I realized that the virus actually auto sends itself to the Computer. Of course, I did not accept the virus into the computer else it will be a disaster.

After trying to get rid of the virus in vain, I got rather upset with how things were. What got me more upset was that, even after I shut down the Bluetooth application, the virus would auto send itself to whomever who calls in or sends text message to me. It appears as a MMS to the unknowing party.

The wonderful thing was that not many people called or even sent text messages to me that Saturday. If not, it will be a real disaster!

If you have received any MMS from me or even been hit by the virus, please forgive me. I did not do it deliberately. It is really not intentionally sent to you and I have never want to get anyone into trouble.

Right now, the virus has been cleared but I will never forget this lesson.

Should you receive any messages or applications via Bluetooth through an unknown party, do not be like me… I know I was silly but… what to do? What’s done cannot be undone.

Thoughts...

PASSION EXTRA

Quote:
'... I took the guitar with me to the bathroom, everywhere I went, I played it because I loved it.
- Chet Atkins

Leaders doing just the necessary things never become great leaders.

Passion keeps you going when everyone else is gone.

If we're watching the clock, waiting for the weekends, groaning on Monday, our passion has evaporated.

That's not living. That's existing.

Revive your hot buttons and work from them.

People living outside their passion slowly die.